A Grieving Heart

I was looking back and remembered how and what it was enjoying and journeying single life. It's adventure, joy, frustration and dreams.
Then I recalled one specific emotion that trigger me to put it into writings. Hopefully people find this article helpful.

Grief is a very personal thing.An emotion that are indescribable in words. Every grief is different and the way you grieve may be entirely different than the way I grieve, yet both of us will probably share same emotional symptoms like Sorrow, Anger, Loneliness, Sadness, Shame, Anxiety, Blame, Emptiness and Depression. I know you agree. Prior to my marriage I encountered a terrible emotional loss, relationship breakup. I had so much resentment in my heart then. But you know, this very same wound led me back to God. Because of this pain that I drew more closer to God trusting his Power to heal me. Only He is able to cure me. Now let me share the stages I go through before finally embracing my healing.

Stage 1: Acknowledge your Grief
Don't deny what you feel. If you wanted to cry, to shout, or to talk about it then do. Let your heart
mourn. Allowing this things is the way to let it go.Do not be pressured to hide nor denying it. It's your grief
and it is real.

Stage 2: Allow your Anger but resist the temptation of placing Blame
Have a healthy lifestyle, create self care habits this establishes self value and worth.Pampering yourself
feels good and the need to place blame disappear. Acknowledging Anger is not wrong but do not dwell or
linger on bad thoughts and stop placing blame. It won't help.

Stage 3: Intercept, Resist, Divert
Intercept your thoughts. Resist temptation and Divert by redirecting your interests elsewhere with more
self gratifying activities.

Stage 4: Depression is a symptom of suppressed emotions.
Let it out. Read His word. Take this as an opportunity to also know your Creator. The Lord is close to the
brokenhearted and saves those who are crush in spirit Psalm 34:18

Stage 5: Have the Freedom to tell your story.
As your dark clouds have now parted you should feel beautiful. Now your soul has been reawakened use this to
to see and appreciate the beauty surrounding you. Be an Encouragement to others, your story is a testimony so share it.

My Inner Cry

This song tells about one's yearning and emptiness. A child expressing his deep longing to restore one's passion for his Father.
Expressing the sadness over his fading love towards his Father. A christian's life has its own season. At some point
we will all encountered spiritual dryness. This is a moment in our life when God seem so far to reach. Our heart seemed calloused and insensitive.Sometimes our sins causes us to drift away from God. Lacking personal time with Him is also a factor.But what is important is
to never gave up longing for His presence. Let us consider this as an opportunity to seek God more.

At this very moment this song speak about my real emotion. We all go through some personal struggle,it may differ. I felt a deep empty hallow in my heart and I knew only God can fill this void.I knew that nothing can separate me from His love but what is a better way than to show back this love to Him? Earthly desire and longings was given far more time than Him. Facing responsibility such as raising your own family divides your attention. This is reality, I'm not complaining but this is what I feel. I hope sooner I will see myself resting in His lap. God bless to all of us who is in the same shoe. :)


First Love by: Avalon

i used to be the one who would long to hear Your voice
a child who sought to win his Father's heart
but as i carried on, life's got a hold on me
now here i am a son so far from home

chorus:
tell me when did i loose my first love?
where did the fire and passion go?
burn in me Your holy fire give me back my lost desire
and restore in me the love i felt for You

can i remember how it felt ?
when they looked into my face
and they saw the love of Jesus in my eyes
when i looked back on my life
and questioned where i've been
can i really say i've done my best for you?

Repeat Chorus

oh where did i go (ive lost my way)
oh im lost and im alone
oh help me please
Lord lead me home

Father take me back
let me start again
Lord ive failed and fallen in my pride
lead me back to you (back to you)
where my life began
revive in me the yearning that has died