Steps To Forgiveness

I would like to give credit to Ate Jenny my spiritual mother whom I haven't seen for years, thank you for sharing this to me. I have kept this journal for a long time, but then I realized this needs to be shared so that someone who might be facing the same issue will be encourage. During times I find myself having tough time forgiving someone I am reminded of this things.

1. Identify the people, situations and issues that have hurt you. You feel pain inside when you think of them.

2. Condemn the act, not the person.

3. Release yourself from victim mentality. Say, " I choose no longer to be bound as a victim in my thinking by this circumstance.
I choose the pathway of healing for my pain."

4. Release justice and judgement into God's hands. It is mine to avenge. I will repay, says the Lord." Romans 12:9

5. Give up the right to get what is owed to you.
Say I release __________ from the debt that they owe me. I realize I need healing for this pain and the consequence of this situation
on my life. But, I now see that they cannot make it up to me. I now release them totally into the loving care of my Heavenly Father,
who judges all people fairly.

6. In some situations confrontation is needed to set both parties free. But remember Forgiveness and Trust are two different issues.

7. Pray

8. Use the wrong doing against you as a source of God's deepening work of compassion in you life. This will give you identification
with others.

REMEMBER THIS:
a. I CANNOT UNDO THAT WHICH HAS BEEN DONE AGAINST ME, BUT I CAN RENDER IT POWERLESS IN MY LIFE, AND USE IT FOR GOOD.

b. BUT AS FOR YOU, YOU MEANT EVIL AGAINST ME; BUT GOD MEANT IT FOR GOOD, IN ORDER TO BRING IT ABOUT AS IT IS THIS DAY, TO SAVE
MANY PEOPLE ALIVE. GENESIS 50:20

Like what other's said. It is easy being said than done. I haven't perfected this area in my life, but hopeful by God's grace.

My Inner Cry

This song tells about one's yearning and emptiness. A child expressing his deep longing to restore one's passion for his Father.
Expressing the sadness over his fading love towards his Father. A christian's life has its own season. At some point
we will all encountered spiritual dryness. This is a moment in our life when God seem so far to reach. Our heart seemed calloused and insensitive.Sometimes our sins causes us to drift away from God. Lacking personal time with Him is also a factor.But what is important is
to never gave up longing for His presence. Let us consider this as an opportunity to seek God more.

At this very moment this song speak about my real emotion. We all go through some personal struggle,it may differ. I felt a deep empty hallow in my heart and I knew only God can fill this void.I knew that nothing can separate me from His love but what is a better way than to show back this love to Him? Earthly desire and longings was given far more time than Him. Facing responsibility such as raising your own family divides your attention. This is reality, I'm not complaining but this is what I feel. I hope sooner I will see myself resting in His lap. God bless to all of us who is in the same shoe. :)


First Love by: Avalon

i used to be the one who would long to hear Your voice
a child who sought to win his Father's heart
but as i carried on, life's got a hold on me
now here i am a son so far from home

chorus:
tell me when did i loose my first love?
where did the fire and passion go?
burn in me Your holy fire give me back my lost desire
and restore in me the love i felt for You

can i remember how it felt ?
when they looked into my face
and they saw the love of Jesus in my eyes
when i looked back on my life
and questioned where i've been
can i really say i've done my best for you?

Repeat Chorus

oh where did i go (ive lost my way)
oh im lost and im alone
oh help me please
Lord lead me home

Father take me back
let me start again
Lord ive failed and fallen in my pride
lead me back to you (back to you)
where my life began
revive in me the yearning that has died

Seeking His Kingdom

Today we just came from a Sunday service fellowship. Our third time attending Word for the World Fellowship in Mandaue Cebu. After a year of finding a local church and asking God for guidance, I finally arrived in their doorstep and found a church for us. We use to attend fellowship in CGC Valenzuela Manila but since the family moved to Cebu, it was a challenge finding one. It's like searching for a second home away from home. There were some aspects that needs to consider. But I am so glad to finally met fellow brothers in Christ. The Pastor and his family is an inspiration. I am indeed looking forward on sharing moments with them in the years to come. And hopeful we will grow and gain more spiritual understanding. I so miss the ministry for years. And may the good Lord help me find what I am looking for.

Life's Tragedy

As what I always heard on Sunday sermon..,

“All things work together for good to those who trust in Him.

The devil meant it for evil but God meant it for good.”

As for me, Ondoy made me realize so many things.It awakens so many emotions. Awaken my dreams and purpose. And for one thing face the question, Am a ready? It scare me. One thing im sure, I’m not yet ready.As you aged, you also mature in some way. Phases and stages in life, we all go through.And sometimes this confuses so many things. Sometime the longer you have taken steps towards that goal, then you feel you’re lost. Did I made the right choices in life?

I tend to think too much on what lies ahead forgetting the importance of living now.I always meditate on the things i never got the chance to have. Shame on me, i fail to appreciate the blessings i had. I was really moved by today’s preaching. The humble preacher shared Exo 3:1-11 entitled: God called Moses. God uses so many ways to call our attention.And for instance Ondoy in some way was His way to call my attention.Because, i was already half hearted.My current state was being more of me and less of Him.The delight on meditating His word everyday was more mechanical than of a passion.Oh forgive me,God. I lost track of Your faithfulness. I was being ungrateful.

If you are having tough times like i do, now is the very least that you doubt God.At times that it’s difficult to comprehend Gods way stop! and start trusting Him.If you are lost in that road start trusting Him for He is able to straighten your path.If your Christian life seems dry just hang on. And claim his promise, A LAND FLOWING WITH MILK AND HONEY.